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Quit blogging.

2011-08-14T23:16:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t!

FYI,
I started blogging in 2008,and it was different back then.
I was more open, I tend to spill everything in the blog, I was more young and fresh!
4years has passed (well,almost), and I'm still,in person, the same me.
Cuma sedikit sebanyak ada lah yang berubah,including my interest in blogging.
I now feel that I don't need to tell everyone what gadgets I just bought, places I've gone to last weekend yadda yadda.

I think I was a bit childish,you see.

I'm 20, and yea at such a young age, I know I should be enjoying life to the fullest (according to many people around me).
Many choose to enjoy life by traveling with friends, have parties here and there, go karaokeing, but I choose not to.
For me, there is more to life than all that.
Sure I enjoy being accompanied by friends to huha huha everyday,but at the end of the day,I know I'll definitely be alone.

No matter how young/old we are,we have to realize the fact that our life could end anytime anywhere. (Wallahua'lam)
Are we all prepared for that?
*it's a rhetorical question jeng jeng jeng!*
Alhamdulillah,I have Allah to thank for all the rezeki and blessings I've had,and will have in the future.

I'll be keeping the posts private,or I may just update once in a while.
(I haven't really decided on that yet)
But I will definitely not delete it! Sayang pulak rasanya posts yang lama-lama tu. :")
Sesungguhnya takkan lah ada nak update pasal my daily life doing this and that,don't worry.

Sekian,wassalam. :)

2011-08-14T00:59:00.001-07:00

Am closing down the blog real soon. :)

Wey.

2011-08-07T09:37:00.001-07:00

Sekian,wassalam.

Weekend di Janda Baik.

2011-07-25T21:44:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t!

Minggu lepas balik Kuala Lumpur lagi.
Yes,saya memang selalu sangat balik sejak semester lepas,mungkin sebab tiada cuti panjang? (hehe alasan)
Kali ini pulang untuk attend reunion di Janda Baik.

Tapi sebelum tu ke Felda Lurah Bilut,Pahang pada hari Jumaat malam untuk melawat keluarga Tok Ngah.
Tok Ngah meninggal dunia pada jam 3 petang,hari Jumaat setelah lebih kurang 10 hari terjatuh,dan koma.
After he was concious pun masih tak boleh bercakap.
Jumaat pagi tu pun masih sedar,cuma agak tenat.
Tok Ngah perempuan cerita,dia pergi dengan tenang.
Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat olehNya. Aminn. *AlFatihah*

Ok back to Batch Reunion.
Wah memang seminggu sebelum reunion pun dah teruja.
Haruslah, nak jumpa kawan-kawan yang dah lamaaaa sangat tak jumpa.
(ok tipu,ada jugak lah yang selalu jumpa hehe)
So since rumah saya di Puchong tak ada air (sebab SYABAS potong sebab ada orang yang tak bayar grr), kami stay di Crystal Crown,PJ sebab ayah ada meeting there.
Jadi pagi Sabtu,bersiap pakai t-shirt sahajoh sebab yelah,bukannya nak melaram pergi dinner or Pavilion pun kan? :P

Dalam kurang lebih pukul 11.30,sampai KL sentral,terus cari bayangan rakan sekolah.
Sesampainya kat McD,terus jerit "BEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! ATYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!" (nama dua orang rakan batch)
HOYEAH dah jumpa Phoenix dua orang! :D
Lepas tu mulalah datang yang lain-lain.
Adiey said I look like a cartoon character when I'm excited. :|
Nevermind Adiey,I still love you. Haha.
Jadi dalam pukul 12.30,kami bertolak to Janda Baik.
Sampai lebih kurang pukul 2.30pm.

Kami menginap di D'Ark Resort and Training,tempatnya cantiks!
I was in the same room with Ayien, Dlow and Thara.
The other babygirls dok bilik sebelah.
Theirs was Tekukur,ours was Tempua.
Malam tu ada BBQ and Bola-wathcing and Karaoke session!
The room was completely closed,so everyone had to sing!
Even the twins pun menyanyi! :D
Ada jugak lah adegan atas pentas yang sangat funny *no need to mention here hehe*.
Malam tu rasanya rahang dah mula lenguh sebab asyik gelak dan bercakap dengan nada yang extra excited. Hihi.
Lepas habis Karaoke,semua balik bilik.
Settle down kejap,gosok gigi and everything,lepas tu gerak to bilik Farawa and the girls! >.<
We played Mafia and Orang Kampung!
Sangat sangat sangat kelakar,okay!
Kesian Zan Zahidah sebab we ditched her when she called us,sebab terlalu bising dan riuh main game masa tu.
Sorry sayangku :(
Main punya main punya main Mafia tu,sampailah pukul 2.30am.
Itupun sebenarnya tak ngantok lagi,tapi sebab macam dah lewat,so kami pun pakat balik bilik.
Pillow talk till 3am,then dozed off till Subuh. :)

Esok pagi kononnya ada morning walk,but we're too tired so adalah beberapa yang gigih bangun pagi pergi morning walk tu.
Bersiap-siap pack barang, makan breakfast, mandi and bersiap for photoshoot.
Mak aii diorang ni sorang-sorang fashionable tak beragak! Haha.
Macam-macam gaya posing nye,alahaii. -_-"
Lepas photoshoot,makan om nom nom,then pulang ke KL Sentral.

FUH!
Nampak macam tak banyak sangat aktiviti,but we had SO MUCH FUN!
It's super true that friends at TKC are the awesomest!
Many thanks to the organizers yang gigih cari tempat,transport and everything for us.
Jasamu sangat kami kenang. :")

Alhamdulillah,balik dari Janda baik dalam keadaan yang selamat dan puas hati.
Everything went well,everyone was happy.
One thing for sure,it was one of the sweetest memories of us.
Not to forget all the batch dramas, meetings, parties, wars (HAHA) we had back in high school.
I'm glad our paths crossed,and may Allah bless our friendship till the end of time.
Aminn.
:)

Sekian,wassalam.

MODE: Angaukan kawan-kawan sekolah menengah like sooo banyak-ly.

p/s: Sorry gambar censored. Takmau letak kat blog. Hehe. ;P

My weekend at Taman Budaya! :)

2011-07-19T09:04:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t semua! :)

Apa habaq anak-anak mama? Sehat?
*tibahjah mendadak bawak watak Mama V2 pulak.*
Alhamdulillah,Mahkamah Lorong telah selesai dipentaskan di Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur.
Thanks to everyone yang datang memberi sokongan moral yang tidak terhingga.

Me familia. (Mak, Ayah, Bangchik and Kak Aiza, Kak Min, Abang Fikri and Kak Mas)
Me girlfriends. (Ayien, Jixs, Aw, Can, Mimie, Sherq, Baydah pun bolleyyy)
Me gemot and friends. (Awok, Jepa, Abul, Kecik)
Me old friends. (yes you,Meor and Yasmin!)

Thank you very much for coming! Tanpa anda,siapalah kami. (wah!) ;P

I hope everyone had a great time last weekend.
Now no more jerit-jerit to the actors during our training.
No more vocal warm-ups.
No more gossip sessions or video-watching sessions (i.e Pokemon!).

I'm sincerely sorry for all the mistakes I've done.
Intentionally or unintentionally, semuanya datang dari kelemahan diri saya sendiri.
Halalkan makan minum dan segalanya.
InsyaAllah kalau ada kesempatan+rezeki lagi,we'll work together again some other time.
For now, Bonda senyum riang dah bagi warning:

"Satu sem,satu teater aje,remember?"

Baik Mak. hehe

Picture of me and Mak.
I just think we look 'romantic' in this picture. Hehe. ;)

Sekian,thank you banyak banyak banyakkkkkkkkkk.
Wassalam :)

KTM Station Sungkai

2011-07-10T05:21:00.000-07:00

Asalamualaikum w.b.t! :)

Phewh,baru pulang dari rumah MakCik dan PakCik di Bidor,Perak.
Balik dengan Shakirah,naik ETS at 2.28pm tadi.
Memang satu badan bau asap tak habis-habis lagi ni.
But it was nice to gather all the makciks and pakciks and cousins (hampir semua lah) dalam satu rumah.
Last night we got to eat Nasi Ambeng.
Letak daun pisang dalam talam. Letak nasi. Letak daun pisang atas nasi. Letak lauk.
Lauknya ialah mee goreng (haa,unik kan?), sambal goreng, ikang goreng, sayur kacang, sambal taun (haaa,ni sambal ada kerang,pedas).
Semua orang yang hadir for doa selamat dijamu dengan Nasi Ambeng.
Setiap seorang diberi daun pisang (yang digulung macam scroll) dan mereka boleh makan separuh aje nasi tu.
Separuh lagi kena bungkus,bawa balik rumah.
Ayah kata, PakCik kata,ni tradisi orang Jawa.
Tujuan bawa balik nasi tu supaya orang rumah tahu,yang kita betul-betul pergi kenduri,dan tak melencong ke lain. (hehe)
Other than that,semuanya berjalan dengan lancar.
Alhamdulillah. :)

Oh,terlupa my main point for this post sebenarnya.
So,to go from Sungkai to Batu Gajah,we had to cross the railway melalui sebuah jejantas.
Dan jejantas tu ada dua bahagian,satu for railway station users,sebelah sana untuk orang kampung guna. (so it's separated by a grill or something,I don't know)
Masa lintas jejantas tu,ada dua orang budak kampung.
Muka standard lah,gelap-gelap sikit, muka ada ciri kenakalan.
Masa me and my cousin lalu,dua-dua dok pandang semacam.
I was curious lah sebab cara diorang pandang tu macam they were hiding something.
So otw turun tangga (where I could still see them,slightly), saya toleh ke belakang.
Ya Rabbi,rupanya budak dua orang tu dok syok merokok rupanya! ;(
Baru umur darjah dua tiga dah pandai merokok.
Nauzubillah. ;(

Kecik-kecik dah rosak. Besar-besar jadi macam mana pun,tak tahu lah..
Semoga dijauhkan.
Aminn. :(

Sekian,perlu bersiap untuk ke training teater.
Wassalam! :)

What I love about my girlfriend,

2011-07-05T11:28:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t!

*sambungan ayat dalam tajuk*
She's AWESOMEH! :)
Well,SUPER AWESOME to be exact.
Sebab?
Dia teman saya (yang turun KL dengan rakan-rakan teater) buat promotion dengan gigih di Kuala Lumpur. :")
And we walked from Central Market to Majid Jamek (benda mudah kan?).
Then,kami sambung jalan from Masjid Jamek to PAVILION.
Yes, MASJID JAMEK TO PAVILION.
We walked pass 4 monorel stations or so.
Hari yang sangat memenatkan minda dan fizikal.
(Don't make me start on what happened later in the night,tapi x mampu nak cerita semua)
So,here are the photos of me and my girlfriend berjalan-jalan menuju puncak ke Time Square.
Ok,sebenarnya nak ke TS.
Tapi dah jumpa Pavilion dulu,and dah sangat penat,so kami putuskan untuk chillax di Pavi. :)

PICTURES :)

Menara KL.

Kami nak cari Jalan Bukit Bintang tuuu!
*at this moment,I forgot yang TS tu kat Jln Imbi,not Jln BB.*
-_-"

One of the monorel stations we skipped. ;)

Super sunny day.

The girlfriend.
*she's doing her intern in KL,so saja je nyebok during the promotion. she even brought some chocolates for my TTS friends. :) *

Masa ni tengok dah dekat dengan Pavi,tapi KENAPA TS MACAM JAUH SANGAT?
*then teringat pasal jalan imbi and jalan bb tu. sigh.*

Look at me,messy yaamat.
Setelah jauh berjalan,sambil mengusung beg berat.
I was wearing my specs sebab tertinggal shades.
Daripada menahan airmata asyik keluar sebab mata sensitif (silau), lebih baik pakai aje specs walaupun rupa agak nerd. :|

Bila dah sampai Pavi,we decided to reward ourselves with good food:

Kami berdua tak pernah makan kat sini.
So memang agak jakun lah,sorry.
But the food are delicieux! SUPERB!
Kalau ada rezeki lebih,akan bawa Mak datang makan sini. InsyaAllah.

Oh,and these are the girlfriends @ PICC during Wind Orchestra Finale.
(SSAS didn't win,woohoo!) >:D

Why am I calling them girlfriends instead of just 'friends'?
Because they're the best of friends I've ever had!
:D

See you people around.
Wassalam!

:)

Food glorious food.

2011-06-30T00:03:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum w.b.t! :)
Actually I've written quite a long post,tapi masa tu internet buat hal,so here I am.
Rewriting a post,tapi sedang not in the mood.
Maka hadap ajelah gambar makanan yang dijumpai dalam album lama-lama masa godek laptop tadi.

Gambar terakhir adalah gambar Danish semasa 1 tahun.
He's super cute,and drama tak kira masa.
Itulah motif gambar tersebut.
Hmm,sekian,tamatlah post pendek dan mendadak ini.

Wassalam.

Hehehe.

2011-06-26T19:55:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum! ;)

Sorry for the super duper long hiatus.
Ok tak ada lah hiatus sangat,cuma laptop saya haritu rosak,kipas dia kemek.
So I used my daddy's (cewah daddy lah konon padahal panggil ayah je) laptop at first.
Tapi laptop ayah pun bermasalah,tak boleh log in Gmail and Facebook lansung.
So tukar pulak guna laptop mak.
Tapi laptop mak semua pun kena jadikan https instead of http sahaja.
And kedua-dua laptop tak membenarkan saya membuka Blogger lansung! ;(
So here I am,at last,updating my blog yang dah bersawang-mawang dah ni. (hehe)
Bak kata orang tu,semangat mee maggi. XP
Untuk membuatkan post kali ini lebih teratur, saya akan bahagikan perkara-perkara yang ingin dibincangkan mengikut tajuk (motif?).

Internship placement.

I'm now in the midst of waiting for my internship application to be accepted in any of the oil and gas companies.
Saya mengaku memang tak segigih yang lain,apply sana sini.
Tapi for me, I won't apply tempat yang saya tak minat.
(bukan confident ke apa,cuma I prefer Petronas than some random companies that I found in Jobstreet)
Maka kerana itulah saya belum dapat mana-mana offer for my internship,which is sad. ;(

Birthday Mak cum Father's Day

Birthday mak falls on 17th June every year,dan father's day will usually be a day (or two) after.
Jadi this year,birthday mak jatuh pada hari Jumaat (last two fridays if I'm not mistaken).
At first memang nak balik secara suprise,tapi memandangkan I had to attend an interview with a service company (CGG Veritas. nahh,korang tak kenal punya cos it's a Geophysics company),memang balik secara official lah Khamis malam tu.
After the interview,I called my bestfriend cum ex-roommate,Ayien untuk lunch bersama di Chili's (mengada tak).
Sementara tunggu Ayien habis meeting,which was at noon, jalan-jalan kejap kat dalam Isetan.
And suddenly,"Ahha why don't we buy a purse for Mak!"
So i called BangChik,and he asked me to ajak Kekza along dalam usaha mencari hadiah tersebut.
So we jalan-jalan and found a nice purse,then makan together dengan Ayien,then kena tinggal sorang-sorang kat KLCC.
Oh btw, Ayien's brother was Kekza's ex-boyfriend,and she's BangChik's fiancee now.
What a small world kan? :)
So lepas kena tinggal,Mak called saying beliau dan adik beradik beliau ada kat Chakri Palace,celebrating her birthday.
So naik pulaklah ke Chakri Palace dan omnomnom again. (that explains segala lemak berlebihan yang ada kan)
They were actually from HKL, visiting my (arwah) MakWa (orang lain panggil MakLong,kami panggil MakWa).
So we had a great time,makan-makan gelak-gelak,not knowing what'll happen next..

Pemergian the first close auntie. ;(

Selepas makan-makan kat KLCC,we headed back to HKL to visit MakWa again.
MakWa was suffering breast cancer,and she didn't even know about it till early this year.
And at that time,the cancer is already in the 4th stage. :(
PakWa was the one admitted to the hospital last year sebab ada jangkitan kuman dalam otak,stroke and all.
But see? We never know what will happen in the future.
Kita hanya merancang,Tuhan yang menentukan.
Petang tu keadaan MakWa tenat sangat3.
Dia memang bergantung kat maximum supply of oxygen aje.
Her sisters,including mak,semua dah nangis baca Yassin sambil call other relatives informing about her condition.
Alhamdulillah,MakWa survived till Saturday.
Sabtu tu raaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamai sangat orang melawat.
Sebab masa hidupnya,MakWa memang rapat dengan ramai orang.
Makanya hari Sabtu tu memang tak berhenti orang visit dari pagi sampai petang.
At around 5pm,me and BangChik gerak to AbangLong's place to play with the babies.
And that was the last time we met MakWa.
The next day,at about 8.30am, we received a call from MakCik telling MakWa dah semakin tenat.
And few minutes later,another call masuk,informing us MakWa dah meninggal dunia..
I had to go back to Puchong to pack my stuffs and return to UTP for quiz the next day, so I didn't follow them to Bentong.
Tapi jenazah dimandikan di surau belakang HKL,so I had the chance to mandikan arwah.
Alhamdulillah,keadaan arwah baik..
Kehilangan the first close auntie memang sangat dirasakan sebab we were very close as a family.
Jadi pengajaran to kaum Hawa,sila buat check-up for breast cancer regularly.
Jangan ambil mudah sangat. :)

Mahkamah Lorong (again?! I knowww)

Ahah! Back to business.
Lately I've been busy with the training every single night.
Alhamdulillah,the actors beri kerjasama yang baik so far.
Semoga segalanya berjalan dengan lancar,aminn.
I really3 hope my TKC girlfriends, and those who are in KL can make it to Taman Budaya pada 16 dan 17 hb Julai ini.
Click here to watch the trailer. (it's a simple video,jangan expect tinggi sangat okay)

Sekian,I need to take a short nap sebelum kelas kejap lagi.
I had trouble putting myself to bed last night. :(
So till I have the time to update again.
I see you people when I see you people,insyaAllah! :D

Wassalam,and have a blessed life. :)

Heigh-ho! :)

2011-05-31T09:14:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Hai everyone,how are you sweet people doing?
Sorry sangat laaaama yaamat tak update.
Macam tak ada benda sangat nak update actually,since I used to upload lots of pictures,which I'm not interested in doing anymore due to some reasons. :)
Ok mula-mula nak update on my activities bulan May dan June dan July,insyaAllah.

MAY:
- Celebrated my 20th birthday,which falls on 1st May every year. Nothing much happened. :)
- Abang Ngah and Kak Nuha flied back to Brisbane,with cute lil Adam and Aleeya. ;(
- Finals! Ada tiga paper je last semester. Alhamdulillah tak ada paper yang tahap menangis after jawab.
- Attended Che Mad's wedding, a final national rugby match, and birthday cum mother's day celebration in one day with beloveds! :)))
- Had a nice,quick holiday at home. Seminggu je pun,tapi macam penuh laa jadual. Buat macarons lah, baked two brownies, visited my Mak Wa, shopping spree sorang-sorang kat Alamanda, and many more! (Nur Kasih hehe)
- Boot Camp with DnG girlfriends at UTP! Tiring,but awesome.
- Trip to Bukit Merah Waterpark with the girls. Awesome II.
- Attended my cousin's (Kak Nana) wedding kat Changkat Chermin.
- Watched Kunfu Panda! Super cute,tak tipu mnye punn! :D

Told chah May is a super busy month. Ok fine,mungkin bukan kat blog. Kat status Facebook dah pernah cakap. Ok whatever,moving on to..

JUNE:

- Going back to KL on Thursday (Hurray for banana! :D)
- Planning to jalan-jalan dengan Kak Min yang baru balik from Canadah. And visit Mak Wa kat hospital.
- Nak tengok X-Men and have a treat from Coffee Bean! (I wanna say Starbucks but nay,I don't do Starbux anymore)
- Preparing for Mahkamah Lorong teaser,with Watch Dolly.
- Audition budak-budak baru for Tronoh Theatre Shop! Mohler join! :D
- Planning to watch a show by The Qum Actors,kat DBP.
- Start training for Mahkamah Lorong. Doc's not around,so the play will be fully on ME. -_-"
- Mak's Birthday on 17th June, and Ayah punya Father's day. What to buy eh? Hmm.
- TRAINING TTS, TRAINING TTS, and more TRAINING TTS.
- (NI BELUM MASUK ACTIVITY AAPG LAGI NI,SIGH)

JULY:
- Promotion in KL for Mahkamah Lorong.
- Abang Long's birthday on 2nd July.
- Mahkamah Lorong Shows! In UiTM Seri Iskandar and Taman Budaya Kuala Lumpur!
- Batch Reunion! Miss my TKC0307 girls so very much. :")
- (MOST PROBABLY ADA EVENT AAPG,I DON'T KNOW YETSS) -_-"

Ok cukuplah dengan benda boring.
Now marilah sama-sama visit this link: http://tronohtheatershop.blogspot.com
Supaya anda tak tertanya-tanya tentang "Apa itu Mahkamah Lorong yang hang dok sebut dari tadi ni?" >.<

Oh, taktau nak upload gambar apa,and terjumpa gambar ni masa tengah browse through the "belum agihkan" folder in my Desktop.

InsyaAllah. :) Hehe.
This was written by Aw, back in my fifth year in TKC.
Haha. I miss my schoolyears yaamat amat! :")
So I'm definitely reserving my 23rd and 24th July for my batch reunion,nothing else matters! (tibah)
But for now,I can't wait to go back home ke pangkuan Ayah Bonda ku.
Hihi nak cuba mintak lappie baru. >.<

Sekian sahaja edisi update-setelah-sekian-lama-tak-update saya.
Wassalamu!

xoxo, ;)

Hey.

2011-04-19T18:12:00.000-07:00

it has been a while.
i think i'm back to blogging.

:)

3 words,

2011-03-03T09:12:00.000-08:00

that can make me the happiest person in the world is;

"I have stopped."

:)

Gtalk status.

2011-03-02T01:32:00.000-08:00

"Di Sebalik Ujian Hidup... Dalam kita melangkah, terkadang diuji dengan ujian yang terasa berat hingga kita terduduk menangis. PERITNYA terasa tetapi ketahuilah dan RENUNGI kembali ke dalam diri kerana mungkin air mata tika itu hadir kerana Dia mahu kita menjahit kembali sejadah iman yang kian terkoyak, lantaran ada langkah-langkah yang... tersasar dari KEIKHLASAN dan semoga kita tabah dan ditetapkan."
-originally quoted from a friend's Gtalk status. thank you,friend. :)

..and BANG!
terasa terkena diri sendiri sangat-sangat.

sejak semalam,setiap kali selepas solat,saya terasa berat sangat nak bangun dari sejadah.
sangat sangat berat.
lalu terduduk dan buat apa yang patut.
hanya mampu berdoa supaya Allah kuatkan jati diri dan jauhkan dari godaan syaitan sahaja.
setiap kali teringat,mata terus berair.
setiap kali mata berair,hati jadi sayu sampai tak tahu nak describe macam mana.
setiap kali itu jugaklah saya cepat-cepat beristighfar kepada Allah.
saya tahu,itu syaitan yang membuat membuatkan saya lemah.
saya tahu,syaitan itu sentiasa ada untuk menyesatkan keturunan Adam.

Ya Allah Ya Tuhanku,
semoga kami semua dijauhkan dari godaan syaitan dan iblis di sekeliling kami.
and most importantly,terlindung dari segala jenis nafsu yang ada dalam diri kami.

semoga kami jadi lebih dekat denganMu,
Ameen.

p/s: perlu fix my relationship with people around me. sangat perlu! :)

insyaAllah.

2011-03-01T07:16:00.000-08:00

Kalau ada jodoh.
InsyaAllah.

:")

p/s: Alhamdulillah. Allah is the Greatest.

I don't know.

2011-02-28T15:08:00.000-08:00

If what I did was right.
I just did.

I'm sorry.

;(

p/s: It's hard,super hard. Please make me strong,Ya Allah. Ameen.

words of mouth.

2011-02-26T05:29:00.000-08:00

when it comes to choice of words,i failed most of the times.
but hey,at least i don't feel happy with what i'm doing. :(
betullah orang cakap,bad habbits die hard.
jadi mungkin perlukan kesabaran dalam perubahan.
hopefully,insyaAllah.
:)

btw,yesterday was an awesome day out!

(be prepared for a boring hey-you-wanna-know-what-i-did-yesterday-? post)

i went out with an old friend back when I was in TKC,'M'!
(sorry no pictures since i misplaced the charger of my pink cybershot,and i'm happy about it hehe)
i had a dental appointment at 11.30,but since we reached Ipoh already by 11.15,so by 11.30 dah siap dah gigiku.
i feel PURPLE! :D
the dentist told me that i can get rid of my braces by April,but i don't wanna!
i love my braceface!
(actually mama sed it's better to wear it till habis bayar hehe)
but anyhow,i still love my braceface.
cos the braces will distract people from any other flaws on my face (i think!). haha.
then we hit Ipoh Parade to do some bag shopping,but it turns out dissapointing.
takde bags yang cantik dan affordable (as in not toooo expensive for the look).
vintage bags were in almost every shops,so macam dah muak dah.
M got herself 4 new slack pants!
her boyfriend wants her to stop wearing jeans.
she said it was hard,but she'll try.
itulah sebabnya yang kena beli sampai 4 helai tu! :O
i was so lapar lepas tu that we went to Ayam Penyet API for lunch!
at first macam nak pegi anywhere near my house je,but since Izzat Gemuk mintak tolong belikan movie tickets,so alang-alang bolehlaa merasa Ayam Penyet kegemaranku!
tapi agak menyedihkan lah sebab the sambal is not as pekat as it was before. :(
so untuk menghilangkan kesedihan tersebut,we went to Tutti Frutti to buy some frozen yogurt! YUMMEHH! ;D
it was a combination of raspberry and the original yogurt flavour with some straberries, kiwis and lychees on top.
it tastes gooooooooooood! no wonder some people are crazy about it!
Tutti Frutti sedap kalau orang yang nak makan tu pandai mix and match (wah dan macam baju!).
tapi a bit mahal lah,tak boleh diamalkan hari-hari.
sekali sebulan tak apa. ;)
lepas tu we walked to Jusco and solat Zuhur.
leeepas tu terus shoot to the cinema to buy Izzat's movie tickets.
leeeeepas tu terus masuk Jusco to see if there's anything we can spend on. ;P
(note that M is a big spender,she has lotttsssaaa moneyh!!)
M cakap nak carik cadar for her bed,so we go cadar hunting pulak.
tiba-tiba tertarik kat one small thing that can make wonders!
oh yeah it's a portbale mini digital weighing scale! :D
terus mengorat M to get it for an advanced birthday present. hihi.
M is such a darling!
lepas tu we go find a birthday present for her pulak,which was a pair of wedges.
then jalan jalan jalaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaan lagi (dengan my Sassari,which is very tiring compared to my other Crocs).
M nak cari baju yang sopan but at the same time still fashionable,so we carilah dalam every kedai yang ada.
but you know Kinta City,the shops are all boring! (compared to the ones we have in KL lah hehe)
nasib baik kami jumpa jugak one baju yang menepati ciri-ciri yang dikehendaki oleh M @ Giordano. phewh penat jalan T_T
balik rumah kejap for Asar and some jersey hunting.
(wah banyak betul memburu semalam kan?)
why jersey?
sebab sekarang ni my girlfriends are mad about futsal!
so kena cari baju bersukan banyak-banyak sikit!
i'm planning to kebas all my mom's baju once i go back to KL!
(hers are bigger and loose-er? haha! comfierrrrrr for sports purposes :) )
i also did usha a pair of futsal shoes @ Al Ikhsan.
it was RM200!
insyaAllah kalau sungguh-sungguh main lepas ni,i'm sooo gonna buy them!
it was the mercurial collection (?! yelah kot betullah kot tu,i don't really know pasal jenis-jenis kasut sukan ni) and it was STRIKING PINK!
tak tahannnnn nak beliiiiiiiiiiii!
(ok Atul,bersabar bersabar.)

ok dah habis meroyan about yesterday.
well,actually i was a bit dissapointed with a few things.
and also am very happy with certain others things.

things that dissapoint me:
seeing my friends changing into some girls yang sangat sangat tidak sopan. (i know i'm not that sopan myself,but they are wayyyyy worse i tell you)
they (yeah,bukan seorang ok) were very sweet and sopan back then. what a waste. :(
nauzubillah.

things that makes me happy:
seeing friends who are changing into a better way of living life. Alhamdulillah. :)
we will all try our best to improve ourselves,insyaAllah.

haihh. life is just too complicated kan?

p/s: lately ni posts saya macam a bit caca marba,hehe sorry!

jiwang 1.

2011-02-20T02:43:00.000-08:00

i know,
maybe we're not like everybody else.
maybe we're different in our own ways.

but i'm sure what we have is true.
don't ever get tired of this me-and-you thing.

mahal kita.

:)

wak.

2011-02-16T10:04:00.000-08:00

me love.
me love.

:)

i'm back!

2011-02-13T17:10:00.000-08:00

holiao what an awesome weekend!
me and ma nigguh (tibejeh) went to UiTM Merbok to perform our show, Mahkamah Lorong.
click here to watch the update from our TTS blog.
Alhamdulillah,they liked it so much.
dah ramai yang add kat Facebook (haha is that something to be bragged about?),especially the actors and actresses who performed.
i was satisfied with their performance.
honestly,Doc and I were VERY worried masa tengok the rehearsals and practices.
kami berdua cam chuak gila,"alamak,macam ni ke diorang nak perform nanti? (geleng2 kepala)".
tapi Alhamdulillah,everything turned out well.
BIG thanks to the technical crews and the performers.
costume people,props people,stage manager yang awesome, project manager,semua lah!
sorry if I've been a bad assistant director to the show.
saya memang kuat pressure sikit,hehehe.
i'm not a perfectionist,cuma kadang-kadang je jadi sangat particular,taktau kenapa.
sorry ehh? especially the new kid in the house,Hisyam! (HAHA)
dia selalu kena pressure,sorry Hisyam! XP
and to everyone, thank youu so much for your cooperation.
taktaulah lepas ni akan direct lagi ke tak,(hopefully tak sebab i wana be on stage!) hehehe.
i hope Doc's reading this. Peace Doc!
Doc maafkan I atas segala kedegilan dan kekasaran pertuturan.
sebab I tau kalau I behave pun,tetap Ayie yang jadi your anak ikan,tibehjehhhhh! :O
haha,kidding.

so okay lah,kesian pula kat orang yang tak faham what i'm talking about.
hopefully esok boleh start training for UTP show pulak.
Cheers everyone!
:D

yaww!

2011-02-10T15:32:00.000-08:00

m just;
an alarm clock in the morning,
a lullaby at night.

not a good feeling.
u'uh.

too much of anything,

2011-02-09T21:43:00.000-08:00

can make you sick?

well,i hope not.
:(

CALL,DON'T TEXT.

adoidoi.

2011-02-08T09:35:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum sekalian! ;)

cewah. macam pelik sikit sebab selama ni cakap "Hello world" dan sebagainya.
ah takpelah,bukannya perubahan yang salah pun kan? cewah lagi. ;)

tadi i posted a wall post yang berbunyi:

"Kalau kita boleh spend hours in front of the laptop watching series and movies, playing Dota and PES and Farmville and Cafe World,updating Twitter and Facebook and Tumblr and Blogs,kenapa susah sangat nak spend time, walaupun sekejap, untuk mendekatkan diri dengan Allah S.W.T? Astaghfirullah.. :(
Well,let's remind each other on this,chalo? :)"

bukannya apa,cuma macam,entahlah.
diri sendiri pun sememangnya tak sempurna lansung.
mulut pun rasa nak cili sendiri (no orang lain tak payah tolong ye,i can do it myself! haha).
solat subuh pun kadang-kadang lewat sampai tergajah. :(

tapi tak salah kan kalau nak post sebagai peringatan kepada orang lain jugak?
yelah,sebab i know most of us memang sangat suka ber-lagha dengan internet n laptops.
sampai kalau internet lembab sikit,dah mula mencarut-carut ITMS UTP sebab tak baguslah konon.
haha.
pitam kejap. -_-"

anyways,my point is,sebenarnya saya rasa tak layak pun nak post macam tu.
yea,a huge part of me rasa "Alah,kau bukannya bagus sangat pun?"
tapi to think back,kenapa perlu ada fikiran macam tu?
as long as it's a reminder to all of us,i think it should be fine lah kan?
bukannya ada mengutuk sesiapa pun,cuma sekadar mengingatkan diri sendiri,dan rakan-rakan rapat (sebab rakan-rakan jauh mestilah tak baca pun wall post I! hehe)

ok lah,terbabas kejap dari landasan pencarian info for my assignment.
i'm no good in finding stuffs in the internet. so cam tekanan kejap dengan diri sendiri. :(
sudahlah labu,let's get back on track!

see you around,peeps! ;)

p/s: semoga rakan-rakan ku yang tak sihat akan kembali sihat seperti sediakala dengan secepat mungkin,Ameen.

matang sikit. pasal teater. kalau tak minat,jangan baca. :)

2011-01-31T08:26:00.000-08:00

gambar hiasan.
i just miss the old times.

wahh,macam dah bersawang pun ada blog ni.
ok intro macam agak lame lah kan sebab nak cerita kenapa takleh nak update.

1: busy sikit.
2: busy sikit.
3: busy sikit.

so yeah,i was a bit busy sejak bukak semester baru haritu.
lectures macam tak rasa sangat lagi,sebab tak merasa seminggu penuh pun lecture.
last thursday balik rumah after an exhibition @ KLCC.
minggu ni pulak CNY holiday.
aihh bilalah nak start rasa the burning desire to study ni. ecehh ayat macam Puan Tengku.
hehe. (Puan tengku tu Pengetua TKC masa saya F5)

anyways,Tronoh Theatre Shop (TTS) is busy preparing for our nearest show @ UiTM Merbok.
tajuk dia "Mahkamah Lorong". cewah doc ni,tajuk nak pelik aje.
oh well,macam kena lah jugak dengan the content.
sadly,i won't be performing for this show.
doc telah memberi kepercayaan sikit kepada saya untuk assist him as the dictator cum director.
so yeah,i'm the assistant director.
being an assistant director,for me,is a challenging task.
eventhough saya dah berlakon sejak di bangku sekolah rendah lagi,tak pernah lagi jadi director of any of the shows.
ok fine,Drama for English 1 and 2 memang saya director,but duhh,tak patut dikira kot?
hehe.

saya masuk TTS ni since Foundation 1st semester lagi.
sangat semangat masa tengok poster Tronoh Theatre Shop kat depan CIMB bank dulu!
oh my,i still remember the first time i was auditioned by Usop and Kak Aini.
orang-orang yang datang dengan saya masa tu semua x muncul after that.
alhamdulillah,i was chosen to play a Makcik role in their first english play,Our Land.
gila ah dahlah aku tak pernah bawak watak orang tua!
so in that play,saya tak berapa gemar sangat lah watak tu,sebab tak menonjol sangat skill dia.
hehe XP
tapi i got to know people macam Kak Maria Elena, Kak Sabrina (haha), Kak Yas and Pojan the Maher Zain. and the director of course,Sultan.
eventho i was the only one from my batch kat situ.i survived succesfully.
hari-hari saya datang paling awal and jalan kaki to MPH from v1d.
no,saya tak pernah merungut.
in fact,i enjoyed it.
and masa tu pun the seniors tak pandang pun saya,sebab biasalah,budak baru.
tak ramai yang betul-betul duduk sebelah and say "hai atul,tadi kelas habis pukul berapa?"
or "atul orang mana eh? sekolah mana? suka tak TTS so far?"
no. nada. zero. zilch.
tapi takpe,saya survived je.
eh,ada actually! seorang je pun. it was Pojan,the mat belia. thanks Pojan. you were very welcoming. :)
sampailah satu masa,ada show Kerusi.
they discovered that i lived in Ipoh,and masa tu show tu kat Ipoh.
so after final exam,ada lah orang ajak tolong jadi tukang tarik curtain and tolong-tolong buat props sikit for the show.
masa tu baru kenal the seniors jugak.
barulah ada orang kenal who Atul is.
then,terlibat pulak in Festival Teater Perak.
again,i was just the orang kampung.
yelah siapalah saya kan,dahlah gemuk. banyak accesories kat muka pulak tu.
hihihi.
tapi takpe,i didn't complain.
in fact,i learned a lot from the seniors,and of course,from doc.
buat saya rasa nak perform better setiap kali naik stage.
and everytime the director rasa puas hati,i'm even more satisfied than he/she is.
sebab it IS my passion.
so when doc asked me to be one of the main casts in Asylum,i was excited.
sebab saya tahu,doc dah mula percaya saya.
so i tried my best on stage,and alhamdulillah. twas ok.
cuma masa kat KL baru pakai braces,so susah sikit nak perform. :(
after Asylum,TTS had another big project,which was Tuah Hang Jebat.
as usual,i got the evil part (together dengan Nik lah macam biasa hehe).
i was Inangda.
at first (honestly) macam a bit down sebab hello? Inangda satu scene je kot?!
but then,baru perasan.
without that one scene,the whole play takkan menjadi.
so my role was important-lah-jugak.
and at last,i think i nailed it!
and it was one of the happiest moments ever (sepanjang karier perlakonan saya lah hehe).
bukan sebab dapat pujian sini sana,but sebab masa tu baru betul-betul rasa puas hati dengan apa yang kita buat.
seriously.
sebab when it's our passion,we do it whole-heartedly,and we feel satisfied with it,it's the best feeling ever!
even if it's just a small part,it becomes big when there are people who recognize adn remember it.
:)

tapi sayang,tak semua macam kita.
tak semua yang ada passion macam kita.
i know mine is not as hardcore as the seniors namely Pacel, Kak Ad, Abang Lut, Akin etc yang memang berhempas pulas nak naikkan nama TTS di mata orang ramai.
tapi i still know why am i in TTS,still.
i mean,come on.
the reson why kita masuk TTS ialah sebab kita minat,atau sebab nak impress people?
atau sebab nak ikut kawan sahaja?
atau sebab saja nak isi masa lapang yang bosan duduk kat bilik?
atau sebab nak jadi popular and dapat perform atas stage depan orang ramai dengan selalunya?
apa kau ingat popularity is everything?
apa kau ingat semua yang memuja kau akan puja kau sampai mati?
memang the first reason saya masuk sebab minat.
but now,i believe in motto TTS which is "Perjuangan kita hanyalah untukNya."
so yeah,niat tu haruslah dibetulkan.
jadi whatever happens,kena lah bagi sepenuh jiwa raga bila kita diberi sesuatu amanah.
kalau tak dapat nak all out,then don't get involved at all in the first place.
kalau hanya untuk dapat populariti,go to American Idol audition and make up stories about your girlfirend or something like that,jangan masuk TTS.
ini bukan tempat kau nak tumpang popular atau tempat kau terpaksa datang sebab kena paksa,NO.
lagi satu,tolonglah.
tooolooonggglah.
i'm begging you on my knees.
don't lahh be selfish selfish ni.

ok memang saya pun tak sempurna.
saya mengaku dulu-dulu pun ada lah datang lewat and all.
tapi seingat saya lah,tak pernah saya SENGAJA DENGAN SUKA HATI SAMBIL ONLINE KAT BILIK ATAU MAKAN KAT MAMAK tak datang practice.
oh come on,who are you? Siti Nurhaliza? Barrack Obama?
even a lecturer with phD pun tak buat macam kita tau.
tolonglah toolonngggllaahhh.
fikir balik.

ya memang semua orang tak sempurna.
saya pun HARUSLAH tak sempurna.
but doing after a lot of thinking,i realized yang we've been too selfish lah all this while.
kita asyik fikir pasal diri sendiri je,tak fikir orang lain.
kalau si polan tu dah gigih tolong carikkan soundtrack,walaupun lagu yang dia cari tak kena dengan scene or whatsoever,perlu ke kita kutuk direct?
"tolonglah,bosan kot lagu ni."
can't you show a bit of appreciation to him?
mungkinlah kalau kau buat,kau boleh cari lagu yang meletup.
but at least he's trying? he has the effort.
kau hado? nan hado okayyy,NON HADO.

okay i think this post is getting too personal. hehe.
i just need to let go of certain things and yeehaa! i can go wash my face,brush my teeth and sleep like a baby now.
to those yang berjaya baca sampai sini,congratulations!
sebab dapat stand orang merapek dengan emosi melimpah ruah dengan agak lama.
(i bet even si gemuk pun takmau baca sampai habis ni,hehe sorry awak! :P)
so yeah,sudahlah tu kot.
dah tak mampu nak menahan air mata (ceeewahhhhh! over gila lah kan! hahaha!).
sampai di sini sahaja post emo buat masa ni.
post masa riang ria bersama girlfriends akan menyusul kemudian hari,masa CNY break maybe.
;)
sekian,Wassalam.

p/s: meroyan sebab takde benda lain nak difikirkan,assignment hantar lambat lagi. ok i better go undergo a soul theraphy after this. :)

2011-01-31T00:51:00.000-08:00

post baru hanya akan ditulis sekiranya ada orang demand. sekian. :)

rugbeh!

2011-01-15T08:42:00.000-08:00

oh yeah i watched a full rugby game tadi!
:D
itupun sebab si gembul main. hehe.
i'm still wondering why do people love rugby so much.
tak sakit ke kena langgar-langgar tu?
meng-injurekan je.
haihh.

p/s: MODE: malas yaamat nak update guna gambaq. internet lambat baq hang!

surfers paradise 2,seaworld 2,and movie world 2. :D

2011-01-13T06:01:00.000-08:00

sneak peek!
;D
malas nak upload gambar lagi.

movie world 1

2011-01-12T07:15:00.000-08:00

tak perlu pegi ke Universal studio,Singapore. (ahemm hehe)
it's the MOVIE WORLD BABY!
ini pun termasuk dalam VIP pass yg ive told you earlier. hehe.
malas dah nak type panjang2,so let the pictures do the talking.
:)

there's a story dengan this girl.
her name is Emma.
:)

awesome Lethal Weapon ride!
Superman ride takde gambar sebab Abang Ngah and Kak Nuha pegi bawak Adam jalan-jalan.

thanks to us,Abang Ngah and Kak Nuha boleh merasa naik rides! hehe.

sampai basah2 baju ok!
all out!
haha.

Scooby Doo ride.
an indoor roller coaster.
BEST!

yang tinggi tu Batman ride,ala2 Solero shot lah.
yang roller coaster track tu ialah Superman ride yang SuperDuperAwesome!

p/s: IMY faham tak??!!!
*meroyan*
:P

Alhamdulillah.

2011-01-10T09:33:00.000-08:00

words can't describe how grateful I am.
Thank you Allah for this.

Thank You,Allah.
Thank You for everything.
infite Thank You pun takkan cukup to Thank You for this.
cuma takut dengan diri sendiri.
takut kalau terlupa,
yang all the good things datang dariNya,dan segala keburukan datang dari diri sendiri.

remind me,i'll remind you too.

:)

seaworld.

2011-01-09T19:58:00.001-08:00

part 1.

2011-01-09T18:28:00.000-08:00

seperti in my previous post,yes i was excited nak update blog!
malangnya,semalam tertidur sambil delete gambar-gambar berulang and sibuk catching up with the beloved. eheh.
so kebanyakan rakan-rakan saya dah tau,i was away to Brisbane,Australia for two weeks and baru sampai Malaysia balik Subuh semalam.
me and Abang Chik stayed at our Abang Ngah's house,with Kak Nuha and Adam and Baby Aleeya. (they're great,i tell ya!)
baiklah,now be prepared for pembebelan yang akan jadi terlalu panjang. ;P

ladies and gentlemen, let's begin!

the first two days,including the boxing day,kami lepak kat two shopping malls dekat the suburb; Westfield and Indoroopilly.
lumrah wanita lah TERbeli barang sikit-sikit sini sana. hehe.
lepas tu,dalam the third day,Abang Ngah took us to the nearest Bukit Ampang yang ada kat situ,iaitu Mt. Coot Tha.
from
so the first destination (yang macam tourists attraction lah,not shopping malls) was Movie World,Gold Coast.. at first.
tapi sesampainya kat sana,tengok orang ramai yaamat! sampai kena ada polis jaga.
well,i think everyone's excited sebab hari tu tak hujan. (this summer sangat selalu hujan ok)
so I came out with a brilliant idea,which was to lencong to Harbour Town! :D
oh yeah harbour Town ialah tempat shopping yang menyeronokkan!

akan tetapi HARAP MAAF,GAMBAR MALAS NAK UPLOAD. SILA RUJUK ALBUM DI FACEBOOK. hehe.

ok selepas had fun shopping, we decided to start using our VIP passes to among the main theme parks kat Gold Coast; Movie World, Seaworld and Wet n Wild!
kena bayar 99aud sahaja,then you can enter these 3 parks bila-bila masa you want,till june 2011!
geesh,kan best kalau benda macam ni ada kat Malaysia. :(

so,destinasi pertama: Seaworld 1. (i'll explain to you later why ada '1' kat tajuk ni)
ok kejap,can i just describe it in point forms? sebab kalau tak it will be very lengthy. hehe.

1. tengok pirates show. tak fokus sebab sibuk makan seafood platter. kikiki.
2. ada jetski show. they're awesome!
3. tengok penguin. sebijik macam dalam Happy Feet! the shorter penguins are hyper! haha. cute!
4. tengok show Fish Detectives,featuring a very debab sea lion,and his friends. best!
5. tengok dolphin show. they're beautiful!
6. jalan-jalan tengok sharks and sting rays and other types of fish. Subhanallah.
7. jumpa Abang Ngah! a.k.a polar bear. hehe.

kesimpulannya,best sebab dah lama tak jalan-jalan tempat macam ni. dapat jumpa the sea creatures,animals from kutub utara selatan pun ada. tapi yang tak seronok sangat sebab it was raining,jalan-jalan pun kena pakai poncho. tapi as we're the gigih people,kami redah je hujan tu dengan stroller sekali. haha.

sejurus selepas itu,kami pergi ke Surfers Paradise pulak! sebab at first we wanted to find some Hard Rock Cafe stuffs,tapi bila tengok balik,banyak t-shirts je. and i won't be wearing t-shirts sangat pun,and kalau pakai pun,takkan nampak all the corak-corak. so.. no hard rock stuff for me. :| tak sempat nak jalan kat the beach sangat,so we'll come back here later. ;)

kenapa rasa macam tak teratur je post kali ni? adoih! tulah, banyak sangat nak cerita! ok takpe,it's my blog anywayss. ;P so the pictures from the Seaworld akan dimuat naik in the next post,atas sebab-sebab teknikal.

sekian,there goes my caca marba post on my vacation, Part 1. -_-"

excited!

2011-01-09T08:46:00.000-08:00

one word to describe how i'm feeling rite now:

EXCITED!

yea i'm excited yaamat nak update blog!
tapi malangnya,tak ambil lagi pictures from Abang Chik's hard disc.
so tak boleh update all out sangat.
hehe.

will be back kejap lagi with the real updates.
but first,kena basuh pinggan dulu sebab tadi tinggal konon nak tengok AJL lah.
AJL was a bit dissapointing tho.
anyhow,nak basuh pinggan!
toodles!
:D

2010-11-09T19:59:00.000-08:00

so true.

of glorious food and aw's.

2010-11-08T07:58:00.001-08:00

kangkung belacan.
terubuk masin.
sambal kicap.
sepat goreng.
kari ikan baung.
ulam-ulaman segar.
sambal udang.
and..

LOBSTER!
or udang galah lah (fine!).
thanks Mak for being such a great cook!

YUM!

btw,here's what one of my best girlfriends, Aw wrote for me last 3 years.
(masa Form 5 kat TKC)
ada banyak lagi,tapi malas nak upload sini.
kalau nak nengok,sila ke Facebook.
:)

awwhh i miss the public phones.
i miss our weekly calls and the ITalk card.
and i definitely miss the girlfriends too.
you people are just precious.
:')

another boring post,yes.

2010-11-04T11:26:00.000-07:00

seperti dinyatakan di tajuk entri,yes this will be another boring post from me.
hehe.
bosan gila sampai taktau nak buat apa malam ni.
roommate takde.
housemates pun sebuk dengan kegiatan masing-masing.
so tinggallah saya seorang diri tanpa berbuat apa-apa.
-_-"
esok balik Ipoh,no internet. pfft.
esok juga mok mahu naik Irau. berekreasi seperti biasa. :(
jadi Ahad baru boleh bersua kembali (cewah).
alahaiii alahaiii.
takpe i hope my Sunday akan menjadi hari yang menceriakan,because I'll be meeting my sweet Aleesya and Danish.
but for tomorrow,nak balik rumah Ipoh dulu jumpa Mak Ayah.
see you in a few days,bloggeh!

p/s: kawan saya cakap ini diari. diari sangat ke? heh.

positive!

2010-11-04T04:54:00.000-07:00

POSITIVE!

owh yeah i had a great dinner dengan seyra bannuh.
thanks babe. :D
petang tadi i was a bit tired dengan semua benda.
eventho i din go to well logging class today,i didn't feel good about it. (hihihi)
sorry Dr.Khalifa,you must be missing me.
dahlah petang tadi panas,so lagilah bertambah kepenatan.
balik bilik,roommate dah takde.
she went back masa saya tengah struggle siapkan Seismic Interpretation tadik.
sobs.

anyway,harini saya telah di remindkan about something.
that Life is a cycle.
so we have to be prepared for its ups and downs.
jadi, saya berazam untuk tidak berfikir negatif dan start being a positive person!
*dengan nada bersemangat!*

ok at least saya akan cuba lah.
hehe. :P

Ayie kate dia tak faham blog saya.
so ni nak tanya,

BANYAK SANGAT KE POST EMOSI/ABSTRAK KEBELAKANGAN NI?

haha.
maaf lah kalau terganggu.
:P

papepun,senyiiiummmmm! (gaya Mr.Tan masa amik gambar kelas dulu)

;D

hai.

2010-11-03T08:57:00.001-07:00

hai everyone.
today marks my last day of lecture,NOT.
esok ada lagi,adoii.
tapi takpe,esok last.
after that i'm freeeeee like a bird.
tee hee. (gelak tak ikhlas)

you know i always imagine what life would be like 5 year from now.
even one year from now pun,i don't know what to expect.
i did know what to expect before,but i no longer do now.
yeah i'm not that strong.
sorry dear blog for all the emotional posts latelty.
now i know why do people post emo posts when they're emotional.
because at least,there's someone listening to us, without having to judge us.
you know,
sometimes,i just want to smile like we used to back then.
you see,i no longer have that smile on my face.
not anymore.
give me a reason to smile again.
please.

;(

patience.

2010-11-02T09:57:00.000-07:00

Let's be patient with each other,Love.

Tapi,

Nak seribu daya.

:)

reasons.

2010-11-01T06:16:00.000-07:00

why i miss home so so much sekarang ni.

boleh terima tak kenapa saya miss rumah sangat-sangat?
ini belum masuk sambal tempe kegemaranku lagi.
ya Allah, serious tengah kecur air liur ni.
thanks Mak sebab turunkan bakat memasak ini kat Mira!
lah sangattt HAHAHA perasan!
ok i wanna bake chocolate cuppies lah balik sini nanti. (tapi tak jaji lah eh eh)
for my friends yang nak pi intern next sem.
dah tak jumpa nanti,rindu.
;(

dan yes,saya miss Kuala Lumpur too.
especially orang-orang belah sana.
ala yang dekat Sepang siket tuu.
haa situlah.
hehe.

;P

faith.

2010-10-31T02:32:00.000-07:00

Thank God we have faith in each other.
:)

but whatever happens,
Allah's love is the greatest.
jangan lupa tu.

hehe. suka.

:) :) :)

photographs.

2010-10-30T21:51:00.001-07:00

korang.

look at these photographs.
everytime i do it makes me laugh.
everytime i do it makes me..
:)

a queen.

2010-10-29T07:23:00.000-07:00

yes.
i'm a drama queen.

p/s: when it's this hurtful, even writing emotional posts doesn't make me any happier.

Malam yang pathetic.

2010-10-29T05:48:00.000-07:00

WHY?

because:

1) saya dah beriya siap-siapkan baju nak pegi Music Pursuit tengok Azlan and the Typewriter,tiba-tiba kawan cancel last minute.

2) zairin a.k.a kawan sebilik balik Seremban.

3) housemates semua dah makan atau tak mahu layan.

4) sangat lapar selepas hanya makan 2keping roti dan secawan susu sahaja for the whole day.

5) sedang lapar, kawan ajak pergi makan. rupa-rupanya ajakan palsu. rasa nak marah tapi harus bersabar ajelah.

7) terpaksa makan roti yang dah expired.

8) mak saya tak bagi saya balik this weekend, and everytime saya tak balik, masa tu jugaklah nak keluar outing dengan danish and aleesya. masa saya ada asyik dok rumah aje. *mengeluh panjang sangat3*

9) mok sedang drive,so saya tak boleh call untuk menggembirakan hati semula. *mengeluh panjang lagi*

sebab tulah saya rasa malam ni malam yang pathetic.
terima kasih semua sebab buat malam saya 'special' sangat.

The truth.

2010-10-28T23:46:00.000-07:00

I was on my way back from KTM Batu Gajah from sending my roommate and Cuya.
Tiba-tiba dengar satu lagu ni.
Sedap.
You see,it's good to know that there's someone singing the song that's very related to you at the moment.
So nah.
Digest the lyrics.
(since I pay attention to the lyrics most of the time)

The Truth by Kris Allen :)

Lyin' next to you
Wishing I could disappear...aay
Let you fall asleep
And vanish out into thin air..aay

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's the avalanche that looms above our heads.
And we don't believe it.

Tryin' to be perfect
Tryin' not to let you down...ooww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
while the floors underneath our feet are crumbling
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.

I still keep your photographs
I remember how we used to laugh
I can keep on losin' sleep
If you're okay with being torn in half.

It's the elephant in the room
And we pretend that we don't see it.
It's an avalanche that looms above our heads
But we don't believe it.

Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...oww
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.

Stop ignoring that our hearts are mourning
And let the rain come in.
Stop pretending that it's not ending
And let the end begin.

Oh yeah...

Tryin' to be perfect, tryin' not to let you down...yeah
Honesty is honestly the hardest thing for me right now...yeah
While the floors underneath our feet are crumblin'
The walls we built together tumblin'
I still stand here holdin' up the roof
Cause it's easier than telling the truth.

It's easier than telling the truth...

2010-10-28T22:16:00.000-07:00

will you still lie to me tomorrow?

will you stop whatever you're doing now,tomorrow?

will you change, for us, tomorrow?

p/s: yes i tend to blog more whenever i feel extra emotional. bcos i don't know how else i can express it. sorry if i annoy you. but yea, you won't respond to this,i know. :(

for you,fareezy.

2010-10-28T20:37:00.000-07:00

I'm pouting without injuring myself.
SEE HOW COOL WE BRACEFACES ARE?
;D

Bu.

2010-10-28T19:49:00.000-07:00

tell me.
when there's no trust,what's left there to hold on to?

p/s: if you want to save us, i hope you'll find a serious way to fix this.

curse.

2010-10-22T17:32:00.000-07:00

I feel like cursing out loud this morning.
I really do.

SHIT.

ok dah bye.

2010-10-22T16:41:00.001-07:00

SMOKING KILLS YOU.
AND YOUR LOVED ONES TOO.
SO IF YOU SMOKE,YOU'RE KILLING YOUR LOVED ONES,
AND THEIR LOVES.

so Thanks.

2010-10-16T12:37:00.000-07:00

"when people you know become people you knew.

how you can walk right past them, as if they have never been a part of your life.

how you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you can even barely look at them."

yeah,i purposely repost this.
:)

oh,haii just got back from ze lab.
i very ze tired lah nowadays.
zo i havta sleep like a baby zite zow.
guznitezz.
;P

will be busy.

2010-10-12T06:21:00.000-07:00

Isnin depan ada Oil And Gas Symposium 2010.

i'll be busy for a few days,together with my other 4 classmates.
doakan kami, The Pioneers, berjaya.
:)

Pour vous, Adam.

2010-10-10T07:58:00.000-07:00

Adam.....
Maafkan aku jika coretan ini memanaskan hatimu.
Sesungguhnya aku adalah Hawa, temanmu yang kau pinta semasa kesunyian di syurga dahulu.

Aku asalnya dari tulang rusukmu yang bengkok. Jadi tidak hairanlah jika perjalanan hidupku sentiasa inginkan bimbingan darimu, sentiasa mau terpesong dari landasan, kerana aku buruan syaitan.

Adam...
Maha suci Allah yang mentakdirkan kaumku lebih ramai bilangannya dari kaummu dia akhir zaman, itulah sebenarnya ketelitian Allah dalam urusanNya Jika bilangan kaummu mengatasai kaumku nescaya merahlah dunia kerana darah manusia, kacau-bilaulah suasana, Adam sama Adam bermusuhan kerana Hawa.

Buktinya cukup nyata dari peristiwa Habil dan Qabil sehinggalah pada zaman cucu-cicitnya.
Pun jika begitu maka tidak selaraslah undang-undang Allah yang mengharuskan Adam beristeri lebih dari satu tapi
tidak lebih dari empat pada satu waktu.

Adam...
Bukan kerana ramainya isterimu yang membimbangkan aku.
Bukan kerana sedikitnya bilanganmu yang merunsingkan aku.
Tapi... aku risau, gundah dan gulana menyaksikan tingkahmu.
Aku sejak dulu lagi sudah tahu bahawa aku mesti tunduk ketika menjadi isterimu.

Namun... terasa berat pula untukku meyatakan isi perkara.

Adam...
Aku tahu bahawa dalam Al-Quran ada ayat yang menyatakan kaum lelaki adalah menguasai terhadap kaum wanita. Kau diberi amanah untuk mendidik aku, kau diberi tanggungjawab untuk menjaga aku, memerhati dan mengawasi aku agar sentiasa didalam redha Tuhanku dan Tuhanmu.

Tapi Adam, nyata dan rata-rata apa yang sudah terjadi pada kaumku kini, aku dan kaumku telah ramai menderhakaimu.
Ramai yang telah menyimpang dari jalan yang ditetapkan
Asalnya Allah mengkehendaki aku tinggal tetap dirumah.
Di jalan-jalan, di pasar-pasar, di bandar-bandar bukan tempatku. Jika terpaksa aku keluar dari rumah seluruh tubuhku mesti ditutup dari hujung kaki sampai hujung rambut.

Tapi.. realitinya kini, Hawa telah lebih dari sepatutnya.

Adam...
Mengapa kau biarkan aku begini? Aku jadi ibu, aku jadi guru, itu sudah tentu katamu. Aku ibu dan guru kepada anak-anakmu. Tapi sekarang diwaktu yang sama, aku ke muka menguruskan hal negara, aku ke hutan memikul senjata. Padahal, kau duduk saja. Ada diantara kau yang menganggur tiada kerja. Kau perhatikan saja aku panjat tangga di pejabat bomba, kainku tinggi menyingsing peha mengamankan negara. Apakah kau sekarang tidak lagi seperti dulu?
Apakah sudah hilang kasih sucimu terhadapku?

Adam...
Marahkah kau jika kukatakan andainya Hawa terpesong,
maka Adam yang patut tanggung! Kenapa? Mengapa begitu ADAM? Ya! Ramai orang berkata jika anak jahat emak-bapak tak pandai didik, jika murid bodoh, guru yang tidak pandai mengajar!
Adam kau selalu berkata, Hawa memang degil, tak mahu dengar kata, tak mudah makan nasihat, kepala batu, pada hematku yang dhaif ini Adam, seharusnya kau tanya dirimu, apakah didikanmu terhadapku sama seperti didikan Nabi Muhammad SAW terhadap isteri-isterinya? Adakah Adam melayani Hawa sama seperti psikologi Muhammad terhadap mereka? Adakah akhlak Adam-Adam boleh dijadikan contoh terhadap kaum Hawa?

Adam...
Kau sebenarnya imam dan aku adalah makmummu, aku
adalah pengikut-pengikutmu kerana kau adalah ketua. Jika kau benar, maka benarlah aku. Jika kau lalai, lalailah aku. Kau punya kelebihan akal manakala aku kelebihan nafsu.

Akalmu sembilan, nafsumu satu. Aku...akalku satu nafsuku beribu! Dari itu Adam....pimpinlah tanganku, kerana aku sering lupa, lalai dan alpa, sering aku tergelincir ditolak sorong oleh nafsu dan kuncu-kuncunya.

Bimbinglah daku untuk menyelami kalimah Allah, perdengarkanlah daku kalimah syahdu dari Tuhanmu agar menerangi hidupku. Tiuplah ruh jihad ke dalam dadaku agar aku menjadi mujahidah kekasih Allah.

Adam...
Andainya kau masih lalai dan alpa dengan karenahmu sendiri, masih segan mengikut langkah para sahabat,
masih gentar mencegah mungkar, maka kita tunggu dan lihatlah, dunia ini akan hancur bila kaumku yang
akan memerintah. Malulah engkau Adam, malulah engkau
pada dirimu sendiri dan pada Tuhanmu yang engkau agungkan itu...

*thanks to Acap for the post. i know you must've copied it from somewhere too kan? hehe.*

bulat.

2010-10-08T05:33:00.000-07:00

kan?

ok ignore the funny expression.
masa ni tengah blur then tiba-tiba ayien/manje/faraw amik gambar terus. ?!

actually macam ada banyak benda nak cakap.
tapi taktau nak cakap macam mana.
type dalam point form boleh?
hehe. ;P

ok,so here goes;

1. I know i have to accept it,but why do people have to change? i cannot accept those who has changed into someone not to say worse,tapi i prefer the old her/him lah. yee yee i know this feeling is not good,but kenapa ekh? i wonder. sebab lately i've been observing,and yea,ada some of the old fellas yang i know back then diorang memang saya respect. tapi sekarang? Wallahualam. semoga kita sentiasa dipeliharaNya. AMINN.

2. Siapa dah tengok movie Ayat-Ayat Cinta? rasa macam pernah sebut pasal benda ni before. it's about the good people,who know that they're good, and of course think that they're better than everybody around him/her, and are proud of being good. sangat tak faham lah dengan golongan macam ni. SANGAT.

3. Ada jugak yang cakap tak serupa bikin. ada yang tak menghormati Rasulullah S.A.W. buku terang-terangan tertulis nama Rasulullah S.A.W, dibuat pukul perempuan. bawak-bawaklah mengucap. dunia ni tak awesome mana. ok?

4. Kenapa saya suka berlengah sekarang? Takut. ;(

5. Saya baru nonton video di blog Fynn Jamal. dia kasar,tapi jujur. nanti i'll blog more about it. ;)

6. Tadi rekod ye pegi mamak from 9pm till 12. bersama geng PG iaitu Munthir, Sidqun dan Bannu. oh,kakak Ijat join last minute. hehe. GO GENG MAMAK! :D

ok rasa macam tu je nak cakap for now.
kalau ada masalah,call me.

*mendadak*

*senyum sambil sepetkan mata*

HAR HAR HAR.

Birthdays.

2010-10-06T09:38:00.000-07:00

You are the best thing,that has ever been mine.
Thanks you for the sweet 5 years, and counting.

Happy real 20th Birthday,Love.
Ingat azam baru okay?

;)

oh,and to Nazi, Dare, Layen, Azrul, and Sofiy, Happy Birthday too.
Sorry takde speech special for korang.
:P

2010-10-06T02:14:00.000-07:00

That's the risk you take if you change: that people you've been involved with won't like the new you. But other people who do will come along. ~ Lisa Alther

2010-10-05T15:26:00.001-07:00

i miss you.
and i hope you're missing me too.

family..

2010-10-04T07:46:00.000-07:00

..is the best.

i love you,Mak and Ayah!

(well i know i'm too shy to admit it depan-depan hehe)

;)

p/s: you see,whenever i start seating in front of my lappie kesayangan,i get too attached to it. macam mane ni? :S

oh btw,izzat fauzi the kakak will be in the semi final for pidato kemerdekaan.
GOOD LUCK,GIRL!

the weekend.

2010-10-03T09:50:00.000-07:00

hello peeps!
(wah tak pernah aku greet macam tu)
i was back in KL for the past 3 days for two special occasions.

1.

it was a good show.
kami pergi berempat: me, ayien, ijat and naz.
well,i cud've enjoyed it better if i was in the first row!
or in the VIP seat of course!
*cough* ijatnexttimebookticketsawal *cough* :P
next time kita pergi lagi,okeh geng?
hehs.

and

2.

(grrr i look super tambam kan?)

it was an advanced birthday celebration.
i really hope he likes both the present and card.
so Happy 2oth Birthday,Buchik.
(in advanced of courseee)
Je suis amoureux de toi.

(wah! kejap. did i get that right? my French is super rusty already.)

:)

Bu.

2010-09-30T07:13:00.000-07:00

Are you reading this?

sadly.

2010-09-28T05:09:00.000-07:00

"when people you know become people you knew.

how you can walk right past them, as if they have never been a part of your life.

how you used to be able to talk for hours, and now you can even barely look at them."

smile.

2010-09-27T03:02:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah.
this semester has been good to me so far.
i have many reasons to smile now.
:)

2010-09-25T18:56:00.001-07:00

Bukhari dan Ibnu Abid Dunia meriwayatkan dari Aisyah r.ha. dia berkata: "Bala yang pertama-tama sekali berlaku kepada ummat ini sesudah kepergian Nabi saw ialah kekenyangan perut! Sebab apabila sesuatu kaum kenyang perutnya, gemuk badannya, lalu akan lemahlah hatinya dan akan merajalelalah syahwatnya!" (At-Targhib Wat-Tarhib 3:420).

proud.

2010-09-25T18:37:00.000-07:00

Have you ever felt proud of having me?

want! want! want!

2010-09-23T10:07:00.000-07:00

Nokia X5 - the device sports a square slider design with a full QWERTY music device which is designed for messaging, social networking and listening to your favourite music.

The Nokia X5 is powered by S60 3rd edition, and has social networking slant – your favourite contacts, emails and social networking sites can be accessed directly from the home screen and is capable sending messages and status updates. Shaking the phone will show the number of unread messages.

The Nokia X5 supports quad-band GSM connectivity, with Wi-Fi, EDGE, EDGE and HSDPA. There’s a 5 megapixel on-board camera with a 4x digital zoom, with a LED flash.

Thousands of games and other social networking, entertainment and personalisation apps can be downloaded from Ovi Store. On top of that, the Nokia X5 has a music player, offering easy access to the device’s music collection with space for up to 1000 tracks with a 2 GB in-box memory card, expandable up to 32GB.

THAT was totally copied and pasted from some other website.

hehe.

so,since i can't have Iphone,can i have this sexy X5?

pretty pleaseeeee?

;;)

haha.

2010-09-23T09:28:00.000-07:00

hello bello mello!
so i've finished my individual technical presentation last monday.
PHEWH!
i think my voice was shaky,and i was a bit rushing.
too many points to be explained within 7mins!
mane nak sempat.
Thank God everything went well.
Alhamdulillah sangat-sangat.
the Well Logs test 1 marks are also available in the e-learning.
Alhamdulillah,not bad.
i'm starting to have a good feeling about this semester.
tapi tak boleh nak yakin sangat lah kan,it's all up to me now.
aiyoyo sekarang dah makin malas! -_-"
mandi pun kena paksa dengan roommate. *heheh*
makan tak payah pulak orang suruh!
memang tak boleh handle lah keadaan saya sekarang.
jerawat memang tak payah cakap lah,beriban-riban keluar!
tak faham lahhhhh. :(
ok takpe,bersyukur seadanya. (no this is not an excuse,mind you)

__________________________________________________________________

lately i was easily annoyed by people around me.
no not my housemates and my family and mukmuk of course. ;)
entah lah.
sometimes saya tak faham kenapa orang bangga berbuat perkara kurang elok.
kenapa mesti bangga mengata orang benda yang teruk-teruk?
kenapa mesti bangga memalukan member kat public?
kenapa mesti bangga?
kenapaa?
ok fikir kejap.

haritu saya tengok Ayat-Ayat Cinta dengan Mak kat rumah,masa cuti of course.
and masa Fahri dalam jail tu,the other inmate yang dok sekali dengan dia tu ada cakap something like this:

"Fikirkan kenapa Tuhan menguji kamu sebigini? Kamu terlalu sombong dengan kebaikan kamu. Kamu rasa kamulah yang palik baik."

OR

something like that. heh.
maksudnya,eventhough, from my point of view,Fahri is a good guy.
soo close to perfect.
tapi sebenarnya,banyak je flaws yang kita tak perasan.
so,tak perlu lah rasa diri kita ni perfect,sebab mungkin perasaan perasan tu membuatkan kita tak perfect mana.
err.
errrr.
faham tak?
(ok i hope u get the relation,and if you don't,tak perlu struggle kot.)
;P

so i've been thinking.

Was i being very proud of myself in the past?
and
Am i still proud now?

Astaghfirullah.
Nauzubillah ye kawan-kawan sekalian.
jadi,saya akhiri tazkirah (konon pffft) saya malam ini dengan slogan:
renung-renungkanzzz,dan selamat beramalzzz~

layanzzzzz~

tah hape-hape ntah ngko dalam post ni,Atul. ZZZZZZZZZZ~ -_-"

fat.

2010-09-19T21:05:00.000-07:00

only God knows how fat i am now.
fat.
fat.
fat.
fats.
lummak.
lemak.
lermark.
etc etc.

sape nak jadi personal trainer?
:D

*konon* :P

missing.

2010-09-14T11:06:00.000-07:00

who's missing?
mestilah SAYA!
;)

sorry dah lama tak update,dear bloggie.
a bit busy beraya,eventho sangat tempted nak update blog cos i have many to tell.
tapi nak buat camnoh,tak sompekk. :(
later lah i'll update.
see you around!

:D

p/s: received an SMS from Beijing,which makes me smileee alll nighttttttt. Thank you,Love. :)

i try.

2010-08-30T06:07:00.000-07:00

oh no no no,ini bukan lirik lagu Macy Gray,I Try ye.

no matter how hard it is,insyaAllah i'll try my best to.
tapi kan tapi kan,
excuse my not-so-girlie attitude.
yang itu susah sikit nak kikis.
tapi akan cuba! don't worry.
;)

p/s: boo hoo you AMOY! lain kali takmaulaa confident sangat nak menang ye? :P oh,and i love Dr.Zuharrr! *tibejeh*

from gtalk status..

2010-08-23T10:27:00.000-07:00

of kak radhah's.

"true love never runs smooth."

i believe so too.
:)

:)

2010-08-21T07:54:00.000-07:00

"Tidak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis, andai diri tidak sehebat Sulaiman,
Tidak perlu seteguh Ibrahim, andai diri tidak sekuat Hajar,
Mengapa mengharap teman setampan Yusof, jika kasih tidak setulus Zulaikha,
Mengapa didamba teman hidup sehebat Khadijah, andai tidak sesempurna Rasul Allah S.A.W."

:)

love the way you lie.

2010-08-20T21:33:00.000-07:00

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

I can't tell you what it really is
I can only tell you what it feels like
And right now there's a steel knife
In my windpipe
I can't breathe
But I still fight
While I can fight
As long as the wrong feels right
It's like I'm in flight
High of a love
Drunk from the hate
It's like I'm huffing paint
And I love it the more that I suffer
I sufficate
And right before im about to drown
She resuscitates me
She fucking hates me
And I love it
Wait
Where you going
I'm leaving you
No you ain't
Come back
We're running right back
Here we go again
It's so insane
Cause when it's going good
It's going great
I'm Superman
With the wind in his bag
She's Lois Lane
But when it's bad
It's awful
I feel so ashamed
I snap
Who's that dude
I don't even know his name
I laid hands on her
I'll never stoop so low again
I guess I don't know my own strength

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

You ever love somebody so much
You can barely breathe
When you're with them
You meet
And neither one of you
Even know what hit 'em
Got that warm fuzzy feeling
Yeah them chills
Used to get 'em
Now you're getting fucking sick
Of looking at 'em
You swore you've never hit 'em
Never do nothing to hurt 'em
Now you're in each other's face
Spewing venom
And these words
When you spit 'em
You push
Pull each other's hair
Scratch, claw, bit 'em
Throw 'em down
Pin 'em
So lost in the moments
When you're in 'em
It's the rage that took over
It controls you both
So they say it's best
To go your separate ways
Guess that they don't know ya
Cause today
That was yesterday
Yesterday is over
It's a different day
Sound like broken records
Playin' over
But you promised her
Next time you'll show restraint
You don't get another chance
Life is no Nintendo game
But you lied again
Now you get to watch her leave
Out the window
Guess that's why they call it window pane

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

Now I know we said things
Did things
That we didn't mean
And we fall back
Into the same patterns
Same routine
But your temper's just as bad
As mine is
You're the same as me
But when it comes to love
You're just as blinded
Baby please come back
It wasn't you
Baby it was me
Maybe our relationship
Isn't as crazy as it seems
Maybe that's what happens
When a tornado meets a volcano
All I know is
I love you too much
To walk away though
Come inside
Pick up your bags off the sidewalk
Don't you hear sincerity
In my voice when I talk
Told you this is my fault
Look me in the eyeball
Next time I'm pissed
I'll aim my fist
At the dry wall
Next time
There will be no next time
I apologize
Even though I know it's lies
I'm tired of the games
I just want her back
I know I'm a liar
If she ever tries to fucking leave again
I'mma tie her to the bed
And set the house on fire

Just gonna stand there
And watch me burn
But that's alright
Because I like
The way it hurts
Just gonna stand there
And hear me cry
But that's alright
Because I love
The way you lie
I love the way you lie
I love the way you lie

p/s: i love it when i listen to songs that really suit my emotion at that particular moment.

2010-08-20T08:26:00.000-07:00

it hurts so bad.
and i'm sick of it.
thank you.
bye.
and
Assalamualaikum.

p/s: absolute emotional breakdown. sekian.

change.

2010-08-19T09:16:00.000-07:00

i now strongly believe,
that anyone,
i mean ANYONE,
can change.

alhamdulillah.
:')

p/s: what if being myself,makes me a bad person? :(

curik.

2010-08-16T03:38:00.000-07:00

taken from Kak Lincatt's blog:

"Love has no other desire but to fulfill itself.

But if you love and must needs have desires, let these be

your desires:

To melt and be like a running brook that sings its melody to the night.

To know the pain of too much tenderness.

To be wounded by your own understanding of love;

And to bleed willingly and joyfully.

To wake at dawn with a winged heart and give thanks for another day of loving;

To rest at the noon hour and meditate love's ecstasy;

To return home at eventide with gratitude;

And then to sleep with a prayer for the beloved in your heart and a song of praise upon your lips."

The Prophet, Kahlil Gibran

let's understand each other,shall we?
oh!
and i miss you a lot,love.
;(

kuat ke?

2010-08-16T03:15:00.000-07:00

Ayah saya selalu pesan.
No matter where you are,kuatkan jati diri.
Walaupun kita kat Malaysia,doesn't mean dugaan tak sama dengan dekat overseas.
Even Muslims nowadays go to night clubs and have free sex senang-senang je.
They don't even bother to perform Solat 5 waktu and fast during Ramadhan.
Tarawikh apetah lagi.
(Astaghfirullah)
Bukannya apa,cuma lately i've been doing a lot of thinking.
Sebenarnya, bukannya susah sangat nak jadi baik.
Cuma some of us think being a bad girl/boy is cool.
Having free sex is cool.
Smoking is cool.
Skipping lectures is awesome.
WHY?
Because your friends think so.
Come on,be a man.
Grow up a bit.
Because what you do now,reflects what we will be doing in the future.
Kalau sekarang tak kuat jati diri,future nanti macam mana?
Kalau a super sexy girl seduces you in the future,and you're married by then.
How would you react?
Kalau jati diri tak kuat,faham-fahamlah apa akan jadi kan.
Nauzubillah.
Face it people,
dugaan semakin banyak.
Even I myself pun tak kuat mana.
With the environment I'm in,I really hope i can at least make small changes in me.
Jadi, let's baca Al-Quran sekerap yang mampu.
Because for me,it makes me feel very calm.

May Allah bless us all,Aminn.
:)

p/s: Vulnerable. And not liking it. Thanks.

more.

2010-08-10T03:03:00.000-07:00

rindu korang.
tak tipu.
balik lah sini.
:(

girlfriends.

2010-08-09T09:54:00.000-07:00

i miss my girlfriends.
yang jadi peneman saya 24jam di tkc.
yang selalu tidur sama-sama dalam kelas.
yang pergi rehat duduk semeja.
yang ajar saya Biology.
yang takkan malu dengan perangai huru-hara saya.
yang akan join me doing silly acts.
yang takkan annoy saya bila mereka berkata-kata.
yang saya tak pernah cakap-cakap belakang pasal mereka.
yang saya suka gila.

them.

rindu lah kesimpulannya!
haih. bila nak jumpa lagi?
we need a lot of catching ups. ;)

p/s: satu je,you don't spend as much as i do. ekeke. bohhrayyngggg! :P

segan.

2010-08-09T02:27:00.000-07:00

u know when you send lovey dovey messages to your girlfriend/boyfriend,
and suddenly their friends read them.
oh my. :O
as for me, i get super segan.
because we don't wanna go all lovey dovey to semua orang kan?
that will be sangat menggelikan to them, i guess.
because when you read your friend's gf's message,you'll go "eleleleeee,suuuwiiiittnyyeeee abang kite niiiiiiiiiii."
then you check your phone,and replied "sayang,i cayunk you muah!" to your girlfriend.
HAHAHA.
kelakor lah awak ni.
:P

from dyra's.

2010-08-08T09:59:00.000-07:00

"I’m sorry I constantly want to talk to you . I’m sorry when you take long to reply I get sad . I’m sorry if I say things that might piss you off . I’m sorry if I come off as annoying . I’m sorry if you don’t wanna talk to me as much as I wanna talk to you . I’m sorry if I think about you too much & too often . I’m sorry if I say things I don’t really mean . I’m sorry if I tell you about my pointless drama when you don’t really care . I’m sorry if I come off as being clingy , but its just me missing you ."

taken from dyra's tumblr.
becos bila saya baca,my innerself screams OUCH. THAT SOUNDS FAMILIAR.
haha.
secara kesimpulannya, i'm sorry for everything. *perli ;P*

mahal kita,bu.

always. insyaAllah. ;)

cinta..

2010-08-07T09:36:00.000-07:00

..lah konon.

kalau masa bercinta,semuanya ok.
semuanya sweet.
semuanya awesome.
kentut pun bau wangi.
tapi lepas kahwin,berlaku tak jujur.
bergaduh.
tak sependapat.
tak dapat terima buruk baik each other.
lepas tu?
nauzubillah.
semua ini,
sebab?
masa bercinta tak jujur.
jadi orang lain.
menipu.
dusta.
cett.
cinta lah konon.

kesabaran ada batasnya.
ingat tu.

oh lagi satu.
saya cukup pantang kalau ada isu;

"perempuan cantik itu perfect,semua dia mintak aku akan bagi. sebab dia cantik. uuulala."

oh please lah.

get a life.

p/s: malam ni mood tak baik. jangan tanya pasal post ni,thank you. and in case you're wondering,no it has nothing to do with us. we're just fine.

professional communication skill.

2010-08-04T06:21:00.000-07:00

*this will be a very membebel post*

hari ni saya sangat excited nak mula class professional communication skill (PCS).
yelah,dah lama tak kelas sekali dengan housemates.
dengan Ainul, Ayien, Aween, Lilik, Sha semua.
so pagi tadi bangun awal sejam,and bersiap dengan jayanya!
sesampainya block 2 floor kedua,nampak Mona and Dinie tercegat kat luar.
ok lah kan,masuk jelah classroom tu.
after a few minutes baru Ainul and the gang sampai.
tiba-tiba,Mr. Ridhuan Tony, our belooooved PCS lecturer sampai.
(Mr. Ridhuan Tony terkenal sebagai lecturer yang sangat pemurah dengan markah)
dia duduk,and keluarkan cebisan2 kertas.
konon macam nak cabutan bertuah lah kan.
so each of us was asked to pick one cebisan.
i picked one cebisan,but then Anif asked for it from me.
so i had to pick another one.
and guess what?
IT WAS BLANK!
while my other friends are busy asking each other "eh number brape kau dapat?",i was busy thinking "alamak,apehal aku dapat kertas kosong?!"
so i asked the lecturer,and he said "takpe,just sit down."
GULP.
Anif kat sebelah dah beriya dah "Habislaa kau Atul,kene drop PCS~"
GRRRRR.
later when the lecturer asked for those who didn't have any number on their paper,dengan tenangnya dia cakap:

"OK,YOU MAY GO TO BLOCK 22, GROUND FLOOR, ROOM 2. SHE'S WAITING FOR YOU."

i was like;

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAATTTTTTTTTTT?!

serious tak dapat terima!
dahlah we fought real hard to get into Mr.Ridhuan's group! (thanks to enol and the gang)

jadi saya pun menyatakan rasa tak puas hati dengan berjumpa the lecturer to ask whether it's possible to swap with another student who's absent tadi.
then dia dengan tenangnya lagi cakap:

"No. You still have to go to the other group. I'm sorry."

Anif datang jugak dengan rasa penuh bersalah, mintak kalau-kalau diorang yang patut tukar because yeah,they are the latecomers!
they failed to register into any of the groups earlier,so masuk jelah class kami.
but Mr.Ridhuan tak bagi jugak. macam the decision was FINAL gila.
omg,saya keluar kelas dengan perasaan geram sampai hampir menitiskan air mata ok.
(yes,i cry when i get real mad and geram at someone/something. haha me.)
LUCKILY,when i entered the new class of mine,i saw some familiar faces.
OH IT'S IJAT AND AMOY! (i mentioned their names bcos they are my close coursemates)
and UNFORTUNATELY,the lecturer is Miss Sumathi.
Right.
some people said it's Sure Mati class.
Thank You,Mr. Ridhuan.
you had just made my day.
*fake smile*

oh my oh my,betapa geramnya saya dengan keadaan tersebut.
terasa macam nak drop PCS sekarang jugak ok!
nasib baik ada coursemates kat the new class.
kalau tak,confirm aku drop PCS sem ni.
-_-"

semoga kami perform dalam kelas beliau.
Aminnnnn.

p/s: i know Anif is feeling sooo guilty about it he said i could ask him to belanje me anytime. Hurrah! HAHAHA!

tee hee.

2010-08-01T10:43:00.000-07:00

eventho i've to buy 3 RM10 top up cards per week for this,
i just do not care anymore.
gedik much rite.
teeee heeeee. ;P

finee finee.
let's buy the MC VALUE and JOM JIMAT set whenever we eat at McD and KFC.
ok,tak kelakar lansung kann.
ok malu.
bye.

obese.

2010-07-30T06:04:00.000-07:00

*i'm all emotional,so don't talk to me or i'll bite*

baru lepas baca a comment from a stranger.
not really a stranger lah since he's related to a friend of mine.
but who are you to say so to me?
tau lah kononnya nak bergurau senda,tapi please,have some respect.
i know i look like a fat, useless loser who complains about her weight everyday without even trying to go to the gym and start working out.
but HELLO?
have i ever kacau hidup kau?
ade pulak gua nak beli makanan gua yang banyak sangat tu guna duit lu?
oh come on,respect lah sikit.

kadang-kadang tu, sesama rakan taulan, i know lah my words macam kasar sikit kot.
but that's just the way i am.
tapi tak adalah nak mengata orang depan lecturer,bikin malu aje.
wey,i may not look a oh-so-girlie,but trust me,i am more sensitive than you can imagine.
jangan sampai i can no longer stand you people.
jangan sampai orang blacklist you for your trashy mouth.

kadang-kadang tu,i seriously don't understand.
kenapa ada jugak orang yang susah nak ada common sense eh?
kenapa ada lagi orang yang cakap pasal offensive matters depan orang yang sah-sah lah akan offended?
ape ni,tolonglah respect orang lain yang hidup di sekeliling anda.
jangan fikir kau cool sangat,semua orang sayang suka kau,kau perfect.
no,you're not.
we all aren't.
so lain kali,kalau nak bahan orang,fikir dulu ye

bak kata saya,fikir dulu sebelum cakap.
sebab saya tahu,saya pun selalu tersalah cakap.
my bad,i'm sorry. :(

tapi YOU,watch your mouth.
ok?
thank you very much.

yes,i'm huge,SO?
eh btw.
awak perfect sangat ke eh?

i love the way i am now.
but who wouldn't want a perfect figure?
i do.
you do.
but we don't have the right to talk about each other's flaws.
i mean,just for the sake of embarrassing each other.
it's busuk.
busuk gila.

siapa yang makan cili,dia lah yang terasa pedasnya.
ok bye.
jumpa esok lusa.

p/s: comments yang tidak membina amatlah tak diundang,sila faham. thanks.

solat.

2010-07-29T00:28:00.000-07:00

hello earthlings.
tadi saya bukak facebook kawan baik lama saya,Hadzwani Hasni.
he's in Germany now,doing astronautics amende tah. (sorry wani,aku taktau)
then there are pictures of him and his friends jalan-jalan around Paris.
ada one gambar that really caught my eyes.
a picture of them,sedang solat kat tengah-tengah jalan.
with kain pelikat as a lapik.
Alhamdulillah.
walaupun dah jauh berjalan ke sana sini,they still manage to perform apa yang wajib.
and for me,that's suppah awesome!
let us all try our very best to jaga segala ibadah wajib,selagi kita mampu.
oh,and here's a photo of us kat broga,pagi-pagi buta.
see the guys behind us?
yea,kami solat kat atas a big rock,on top of the hill.
and it is awesome.

seriously,people.
:)

old buddy.

2010-07-27T04:12:00.000-07:00

(ni gambar zaman foundation ok)
we used to be verrryyyyy close masa form 3,kan dyra?
and dah lama tak chat dengan you.
nanti buka puasa sama,as you promised.
:)

recall this.

2010-07-26T06:47:00.000-07:00

have you ever?

emotional.

2010-07-26T06:17:00.001-07:00

i feel less appreciated.
salah ke?

hari pertama.

2010-07-26T05:34:00.001-07:00

have i told you how much i miss them all?

jadi hari ini hari pertama kami jumpa balik semua makhluk-makhluk ni.
kelas Dr.Zuhar jadi bising balik.
kami dah start aktiviti pangkah-memangkah balik.
saya dah start cakap kuat-kuat dalam kelas balik.
tee hee!

can't wait to start learning.
:)

(wah,bunyik macam akan perform je sem ni? jeng3!)
-_-"
and oh my God!
i miss that watch i'm wearing in the above photo!
:(
can someone get me a new swatch watch please?
*ekeke*

borrreedddd.

2010-07-25T07:45:00.000-07:00

nampak tak tuuuu?
yang ade ekor panjang tuuu?
NAMPAK TAK?
haa,tu permandangan kat belakang rumah saya.
menarik kan?

oh please lah apehal korang merata-rata tempat ni?
-_-"
dahlah ceroboh pintu belakang rumah.
pitam je ok.

oh,itu gambar anak-beranak minum kat old town.
sebelah Sogo.
while waiting for ayah kat Federal Hotel.
(mak aih dekat pulak hotel tu dengan Sogo kan. haha)
ok dah.
rasa bosan dah hilang.
sekarang nak masuk tidur.
nak jumpa kawan-kawan pulak esok.
can't wait! heeeee!
;)

p/s: thanks bubu tolong pilihkan. :)
i miss youuuuuu. :(

kali ini.

2010-07-15T18:15:00.001-07:00

it dropped.
but this time,i'm grateful about it.
not because of the drop,
but because it's better than what i expected.

thank you Dr. Eswaran for not failing me.
thank you Dr. Zuhar for that too.
and to SP and ProbStat,thank you for the final paper that didn't suck that much.
thank you Dr. Hadi for the final paper too.
thank you Mak and Ayah for understanding.
and thank you Allah for everything.
i owe You a lot.
:)

there you go.
Status: Good Standing.

esok,

2010-07-15T03:54:00.000-07:00

ke sini lagi!
bubu sile jangan marah.
hehe. ;)

jalan TAR.

2010-07-12T21:43:00.000-07:00

saje je bosan sorang-sorang at home.
lepas tu terjumpa gambar ni yang belum dihaplod lagi.
bershopping bersama mak (atas,kanan) dan makngah (atas,kiri) @ Jalan TAR.
oh,i suddenly thought of this one quote:
If you can't have things you love,try loving the things you already have.
so let's!
:)

danish yang fani.

2010-07-11T21:01:00.001-07:00

tadi,me and Danish had a funny conversation.

me: *showing him a few pictures of us in my camera* Danish,ni sape?

Danish: MAKSU!

me: *showing mok's picture* Ni?

Danish: *muka confused* MAWI!

-_-"

tulah,dah cakap. jangan botak.
tengok,kan dah kene Mawi.
:P

ze holideyz.

2010-06-29T20:31:00.001-07:00

klik untuk membaca dengan lebih jelas. hihi.

dah banyak yang terjadi sepanjang cuti semester saya. (wah,bunyik macam karangan UPSR je?) mari saya summarizekan:

1. outing with the girlfriends.
thank you sooooooo much to my TKC girlfriends yang sudi keluar meluangkan masa bersama-sama di klcc, bukit bintang, and genting. dah lama tak merapu macam tu and ignore other people yang pandang pelik je bila gelak kuat-kuat in public. :)

2. broga-ing to watch sunrise.
we sampai at aroun 4+ am,and since i am not fit at all,it was hard jugaklaa nakmenyampai ke all the 4 peaks. but it was a great experience. nasib baik naik dengan mok,kalau tak sure takde orang nak teman mase semput-semput. hehe. thanks to aw and fitwi, and bedul and bukup too. bukup,thank you lah sebab tak habis-habis pangkah aku ye. jasamu amat ku kenang. haha.

3. dating sebanyak 5 kali.
oh WOW! ini satu pencapaian yang memberangsangkan! :P should i elaborate more? ;) nasib baik mak and ayah tak banyak songeh sangat. hehe.

4. moving to gombak.
at last,mak berjaya menempatkan diri di SK Gombak Utara,which is veryyy near to our house. haha. tahniah Mak! oh,and about the process of moving to Gombak,akan diceritakan di point yang seterusnya. :)

5. car breakdown!
ok,masa nak bawak barang-barang to Gombak from Ipoh, i drove my Wira and mak bawak Waja ayah. tiba,sampai kilometer 261/361 (dah tak brapa ingat), tiba-tiba the engine stopped! dah cuba tekan minyak,tapi takmau jalan jugak kereta. naseb baik sempat ke tepi sengan lajunya,padahal ada lori dekat gila masa tu. phewh. and mak was a super woman that day,she reversed 5km ke belakang. hahaha! itu perkara yang amat cool ok! and nasib baik plusronda ada lalu masa mak sampai tu,cos ada one Indian guy dah tnggu tepi kereta nak tarik guna tow truck dia. and i was ALL ALONE IN THE CAR KAT LORONG KECEMASAN AND KERETA BERGEGAR DENGAN JAYANYA WHENEVER LORI/BAS/KERETA LAJU LALU SEBELAH! fiuhhhh! plus ronda bawak kereta tu sampai tol Slim River,then tow truck india tadi bawak sampai workshop. kena 1000+ jugak lah. haiyoh,sorry mak,sorry ayah. :(

6. Teater Tuah Hang Jebat di Kuala Lumpur!
kami keluar paper lagik wehhh! and my name was mentioned! (sila rujuk keratan akhbar di atas). alhamdulillah. :) for further info,sila visit http://tronohtheatershop.blogspot.com/. tapi secara keseluruhan, saya berpuas hati dengan the shows on both nights! thanks to doc an the seniors.

7. final wind orchestra @ PICC.
ok,ni masih dalam perancangan. kalau tiada aral melintang, insyaAllah saya pegi. can't wait! :D dah lama tak rasa semangat sekolah macam ni. hehe.

8. pertunangan Abg Fikri.
that's my cousin. and his sister,Kak Min is coming back from Canada! weeehooooooo! Kak Min,nak souvenir best-best ekh? :D she's doing chemical engineering btw. the engagement will be on 10hb julai.

9. balik UTP for another fieldtrip with coursemates!
agenda,akan diberitahu later. but i soooo cannot wait! ala,tapi nak zuza_AP lagii. :(

so,itu jelah planning so far. ada sesiapa nak buat tempahan?
saya available 24/7.
well,not really.
kat rumah ayah tak bai keluar malam. (sorry moy,sorry nyei) hehe.
till then,nak pegi mandi.
babai uollllsss!

pesan ayah.

2010-06-27T09:11:00.000-07:00

jangan nakal sangat.
:)

lain kali pose comel siket boleh?

of you.

2010-06-25T11:51:00.000-07:00

and everything else.
thank you,love.
:)

p/s: takde masa nak update blog. sebok bercinta,selagi masih dekat. :P

of katy perry.

2010-06-16T09:25:00.000-07:00

i'll never be the same.
if we ever meet again.
:)

'CHANGE'

2010-06-05T07:34:00.000-07:00

i have a huge problem with changes.
am sorry.
;(

oh utp.

2010-05-31T18:35:00.000-07:00

i'll miss you.
yeah,you.

all of you.

2010-05-30T04:11:00.000-07:00

I have always wanted to be Jamie Sullivan.
but i don't wanna die early lah.
;)

2010-05-29T20:39:00.000-07:00

Piglet: Pooh? You have a lot of friends, don't you?

Pooh : Yes. But there's only one Piglet.